Why do you feel like not contacting someone so that you can feel better about a mistake is the same as killing someone?
Seems like a moral justification for bothering someone (for no reason other than to assuage your guilt) and comes off entitled as hell.
This is akin to Matthew Broderick begging for forgiveness from the victim’s family despite knowing they don’t want to give it. Stop.
If this means I no longer have to hear the word “unalive,” great.